Saturday, November 12, 2011

hujan airmata

dah lama tak nangis macam orang gila. gila betul. takpe. nangis boleh kurangkan stress.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

hibernation is over. maybe.

i miss to blog. like seriously. got so many to stories to tell but each time i stare at the keyboard, i lost the words. eceh well currently im knocking my head down for degree level in shah alam. its been like 2 months already. none of the day i dont stressed out :( degree is not like what i expected. its like thousands times difficult i could say. urghhh susah gila !! okay lets not talk about it. i might lost the words again. haha

yesterday i went out for movies. real steel and dont be afraid of the dark. yess i watched two movies. syiok. thanks to a friend of mine for the treat. i know its been ages since real steel been release. only yesterday i got the chance to watch it. poor me huh -__- hugh jackman sangat handsome ! hes 43 yet still charming. melted. haha i remember when he was on the lipton iced tea tv commercial, hes looking damn cute doing the dance step. hahaha

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

tentang gila

bukan tentang bulan. hampir setiap hari mak aku kerap mengalun kan madah madah seperti aku gila baju, gila tudung, gila beg, gila kasut. sory mak, cant help it ! dah dua hari poket koyak beli barang untuk rumah sewa. bajet macam anak orang kaya. puii bajet macam rumah sewa lakehouse resort. puii lagi sekali. entah kenape macam banyak pulakkk barang kena beli. ke nafsu je semate. nampak tu nak. nampak ni macam wajib beli. dan sekarang aku meluat tengok bilik sendiri. bersepah. like seriously. and one more thing, kenapa most of the things aku beli semua pink. kenapa kenapa kenapa ?! sampai bakul sampah pun pink ! OMG SCARY

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

tak faham kenapa

tolong la jangan buat macam ni :(

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

ghost stories

does anyone here doesnt like ghost stories? i bet none. no matter how penakut YOU are, YOU still have some guts to read it. but not long after that YOU begin to regret of what YOU were read because YOU started to imagine things exactly like in the stories when YOU were in bathroom or sitting alone in your bedroom at 3am in the morning (well, YOU refers to me actually. hahahaha) anyway, i got some stories to tell which happened in my house. yes, in my house. how cool is that?? haha this is surely based on a true stories not the making up ones. before that, what 'ghost' really means to you? do you believe it? are the things like orang bunian, jelmaan setan, spirits, genies, classified as ghost? lol hell boring. banyak tanya pulak perempuan nih kan.

prayer mat (sejadah)
the prayer mat in my parents' room often gone missing countless times. we searching for it all over the room but couldnt find it. my mom kept searching like, hundred times at the usual place she hang the mat, still hopeless. then, the next day, she found that mat hanging just perfect at the usual place. fine.

the iron suddenly turned on. usually in the middle of the night. you know, when an iron gets hot theres a tick sound. my mom often heard that sound while she sleep them when she check, yes its turned on. of course dah buat sesi soal jawab dengan semua orang and it turn out, nobody were using it.

same goes to my little brother's shirts. many of his shirts gone missing without trace. haha macam cerita without a trace pulak. cari lah bagai nak gila pun, its failed. unless, someone in my family diam diam pergi jual dekat bundle. hahah!

mysterious woman
happened long ago in the living room around 3am in the morning. my eldest brother who just came back from melepak saw a woman sitting on the sofa looking straight to the television. that is why i never went to bathroom at the time like that. sanggup aku tunggu dalam bilik hingga subuh -.-

my laptop
i once blog about this in my old blog. my sister yang tengah tidur tidur ayam, heard somebody/something typing on my laptop like nak bagi keyboard ni rosak. she took a glance at my laptop on the table and very sure nobody is there. at that time, around 3am in the morning of course i am in the middle of journey to the moon. i left my laptop on because i thought my sister wants to use it after me. guess am wrong. instead of my sister, something else use it. shoulda check for finger prints the next morning O_O

ive read an article in newspaper back about 2 months ago. its about makhluk halus yang tumpang solat kat sebuah rumah. owner takde kat rumah like 2 3 days. bila balik, prayer mats tersusun dalam kedudukan solat jemaah. not only that, it happens again after that tapi kali ni kedudukan solat jenazah. how creepy was that?? huhu i dont really remember what newspaper was that. maybe kosmo or else, harian metro. search for yourself online kay? after reading that article, my mom consider there are makhluk halus yang tumpang kat rumah kitaorang. borrow things. sape tak takut hoi. but they are ALLAH's creations too. bulu roma aku selalu meremang bila mak aku kata ' ada hantu agaknya kat rumah ni '

theres a lot more happened but hesitate nak story because its more frightening. my mom got a lot more experience but she refuse to tell because she know am too penakut. dah cukup berani, aku cerita 0_o

Monday, August 22, 2011


its appreciate. frankly speaking i often took for granted to the people around me. back when i was in high school, a lot of things that happened taught me that i better off alone. its a mess when there were too many people. but it was back then. now, i feel that is way too selfish. you dont know what you got until its gone. yes, you only realize the presence of a thing when its not there anymore. i dont want to face that. thus am learning to appreciate those around. i believe if we truly appreciate others, many more will come around us :)

Saturday, August 20, 2011

brain disorder

have you ever been struck by some kind of brain disorder where at some time, you got so many things to say to write or even to mumble, but when you got the chance to express it, you suddenly went blank. gosh, well its not exactly we called brain disorder isnt? haha but who cares. i insist to named it like that. so people, this is what happen to me. when i got so many time and things to write here in my blog, i went blank. but just the time i went to bed, or just after i shut down my laptop the things poofff! come out -,- pity me.

its saturday but nothing much i do today. well got some plans at the first place but ended up being cancel. so here i am with thesameboredthingseveryday-online. its kinda disappointing that i wasted my months of holiday just like that. okay tak payah nak regret sangat la kan tapi tapi nak regret a little jugak. hmm. some say that its good we enjoy during this holiday as we will be damn busy when the degree start. no more cutigoyangkaki after this. if there is, its only in your dream~ plus minus theres only 3 weeks left before it ends. ouch!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Mak, Ikmal Hakim dan John Terry

assalamualaikum! am totally bored right now so just wanna share about my youngest brother, ikmal hakim. he's only 12 years old and very addicted to football. like seriously. ask him almost everything about football, he can answer it at no time. cehh he's not stick at just one team but other teams as well. MUnyet pun dia sokong. but its okay luckily you are my brother. haha

lately, he is into a new card games which is called Match Attax. person who wanna play that game should collect as many card as they can which each card got their own football player. each player card will stated their position, score for attacking, defencing and bla bla bla (i bet u dont understand, hihi) lagi hebat player tu lagi tinggi la scores nye. for example see the picture below.

thus, as he already addicted to collect that cards in order to get best player card, almost everyday he pau me to bought it. 1 packet $3.90 with 6 cards inside. so last two days i treat him another packet of cards and he finally gets John Terry. he excitedly showed it to our mom and said, ' mak mak, akim dapat John Terry. hehe ' then my mom reaction ' ... ' hahaha my mom kept silent. boo ikmal akim! i laugh myself out and said ' isy kau ni bajet mak kenal la pulak John Terry tu sape ' hahaha

example of first eleven of his teams before he got John Terry. haha

as he got no buddy at home, im the only one he'll ask to play that game with him, showed every of his favorite cards to me, tell me this and that, what card he exchanged with his schoolmates, he wins or lose and lots more. banyak songeh but what to do hes my only little brother =)

seriously i dont like it !

assalamualaikum! straight to my point, i dont like indonesian drama! i dont get it why all people in my house like it so much -,- lagi lagi drama kat tv9 pukul 5.30 petang tu. i dont know the title. but the one that got nikita, dony etc. huarghhh i cant even tuned in to other channel AT ALL. there will be scary voice that said ' tukar balik tv9. sekarang ! ' :( ape yang best entah cerita tu :((

and and all indonesian drama, the plots are quite the same. guys chasing for a girl or something like that. what a bored story! plus the most annoying part, the episodes are too many. sometimes it reach hundreds episode. so long that it annoys me. it feels like forever for the drama to end. the ending is so typical but what makes it reach hundreds episode is just it got so many crisis along the journey. please someone tell me what makes you interested enough to follow that drama from beginning to the end. if it is because the main role is handsome, pretty or in the similar meaning, gosh i dont know what to say :|

i prefer korean drama rather than indonesian ones. although it gives similar plot BUT the episode are not that long. cepat je habis. kan jah ?! grrr well this is just my random opinion. *emo kan saya?* mesti la emo tak dapat tengok Music Bank !!!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

almost 3 months now

assalamualaikum! today is another day i enjoy my long holidays. another day without a job =P another day at home. another day as a full time housewife. hehe! i admit that this holidays is totally bored but i rather face it than have to go for classes. haha.. its almost 3 months now since i started my holidays. my degree studies will start on 12th September. ah not ready not ready...haha am scared ! its been a long time since i write notes, take quizzes, sit for exams, attend classes. plus i dont know how to survive in shah alam since the environment will be totally different than when i was in kuantan. think my brain is already rusting. haha -,-

am super lazy at home. instead of house works, i spent most of my time online! i hate facebook so much because i cant held myself from stop staring at it for hours but seriously i cant do nothing about it because it is way too addicting. uarghhh!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

its been so long, that i havent seen your face :)

assalamualaikum! nyanyi sikit untuk title. pinjam lagu akon~ hehe huiyoo lame sangat dah blog ni ditinggalkan. teruk betul -,- banyak cerita tapi malas nak menulis. online setiap hari almost 24/7 tapi blog tak pernah nak update. ah my bad~

Sunday, May 22, 2011

SUKOB in Melaka

so jyeah! i was involved in sports for Kolej Bersekutu UiTM that were held in UiTM Melaka. so it's been a week since i came back from there. hehe! i think i miss all the moments there. eventhough we only stayed for 5 days, each day was priceless. for me je la for sure. haha am joining the netball team. i love netball so much. hehe! our netball team managed to survive until quarter final. our opponents are Risda, KTT and IPB. i was emotional through out the match with IPB and i dont know why. sebab our team tak teror kot. haisyyy i was crying when the match is over. haha loser betul. am felt very useless in that match. feels like am contribute none for my team. huhu..

my knees, elbow and shoulder were injured. got serious bruises some more. huhu i fell during our training with KPTM Bangi. haha belum ape2 dah luka. plus seluar koyak kat lutut. memang terbaik la. but whatever it is i feel so lucky that i got the chance to represent my college. before this, i dont have any interest to join this kind of activity. am kinda reserved. and shy. hahah! but as this is the last semester in college, aku join je la. other than dapat jalan2, konon2 like last contribution la kat college. haha cam gampang. nampak sangat takde contribute ape2 sebelum nih. sorry! hee

i dont know how many college that take part in that sports. but its like sooo many! all the atlets pun seriously ramai gilaaaa. haihh jakun sangat nokk. well its my first time kan. so forgiven lah. hehehe booo! i got sunburn too~ seriously it takes forever for my face to come back to normal. eceh speaks like am so cerah pulekk. pui! hahaa here some pictures! am the GA =) pictures are courtesy from Miss Yanie's FB.

hehe thats all. till next post! :)

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Jaitapur Nuclear Power Plant Project. have you heard about this ?

i have read about it yesterday in Kosmo and i have been thinking so much about it. haha dont know why lo. for me this is a serious matter. am just want to share about it. em okay if the Jaitapur nuclear plant is completed, it will be the biggest nuclear plant in the world with capacity of 9,900MW. IT'S MEGA WATT DUDE. NO JOKE. HEH

at first, the proposed project went smoothly with only little opposition from the residents. BUT BUT did you remember what had happened on 11th march recently? yes, the tsunami and earthquake things that hit Japan and causes the explosions of its nuclear reactor change the whole perspective of the project. the whole scenario. of course that thing has increased the concern of the residents. hey, they live there. they have the right to concern about the safety status of the project. arising from their serious concern, from peaceful resistance it turns out to be violent as the government insist to continue with the project. haih one killed and some were injured :|

taking view from the RESIDENTS, it's totally a cruel decision. apart from the loss of economic resources, their safety can't be guaranteed. even Japan which got the most advance technology, can't go against the mother nature. Japan itself wants to reconsider its nuclear program and even Germany has stop in adding more reactor in their nuclear plant. why is the government insisted in proceeding it ?

the strong reason behind it is it acts as the alternative resource to generate electricity and of course in terms of greenhouse effects, nuclear power seems to be more practical. less pollution as less carbon gas is produce. moreover, it is very profitable to the industry.

clearly, this project has its own pros and contras. they got to do comprehensive study about this la kan. but things happened if they are meant to. India is an asian country dude. not too far from Malaysia. if anything happen, we too will bear the consequences. righhhhht ? dah lah world's biggest nuclear plant. hehe takot la doh.

Friday, May 20, 2011

i have tried so hard. but it just getting harder to ignore.

dear batman,

wondering to myself, so late at night,
what is it that attracts me to you?
thinking to myself, why are you always on my mind?
what power do you have in what you do?

thinking about where i stood,
i try to push you out of my mind,
but every time i push you out of my thoughts,
you crawl back into my world and fill my senses;

it's so hard to keep smiling,
and continue denying what i feel
i don't know why,
a thousand reasons i have done;

quote from here

Thursday, May 19, 2011

i miss to blog

dear blog, sorry for abandoned you for like emm one month and a half ? haha i have so much to write but couldnt find the words. what appeared was just pictures in my head. huhu but from today ill try to write as much as i can as i got nothing to do at home now. jyeah i had done my diploma studies and currently waiting for the final result. hehe..

Wednesday, April 6, 2011 still alive until now.

06 April 2011 - im turning 21

thanks Allah for giving me another year to live. i wouldn't ask much, just give me enough time and strength to make all people around me happy.

however, despite the excitement, there is sadness. dear Allah, please give me strength to face it. please.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

it's 3.19 a.m.

everytime i have the chance to spent a little time with you, i didnt get the chance to capture it in a single picture. never. am i an idiot or what ? gosh. it's not that i didnt appreciate that time, it just there is something that holds me to do it. sedih betul la.. ah things happen for a reason. mungkin semua kenangan tu hanya layak di simpan dalam ingatan. bukan untuk tatapan orang lain, mungkin :)) mungkin supaya aku ingat kau setiap masa. ye lah asyik dok rewind semua peristiwa tu =)

it's time for bed now. you may never ask me this but i insist to tell, you never missed to be the last thing on my mind before i went to sleep. good night, batman.

Friday, March 25, 2011

kawan rapat saya ketika ini

maggi - not really close friend dah la sekarang ni. tapi kerap jugak la aku makan back 2 3 weeks ago. feeling lepas makan maggi ni pelik sikit. lepas makan, aku rasa sangat bodoh. tak tau la sebab effect makan maggi ni memang cepat macam tu ke ape, tapi memang macam tu aku rase. haha.. dah rasa bodoh bodoh pun makan jugak lepas tu. nak di jadikan kisah, 3 minggu lepas la kot. aku makan maggi 2 hari berturut turut. dinner la konon kan. nak jimat la konon kan. besok nya terus sakit perut macam orang gila! menyesal makan.. haha sekarang tak nak makan dah.

minyak cap kapak - isy bunyi macam makcik makcik je kan. aku kesah ape. lately aku selalu sangat sakit kepala. sangat sangat! hal kecik pun boleh sakit kepala. belajar banyak sikit sakit kepala. gedik sungguh. tido lame sikit sakit kepala. bangun pagi sakit kepala. bau asap rokok, HA YANG NI PALING BUAT AKU SAKIT KEPALA N NAIK DARAH. tak tahu la ape masalah kepala aku nih. sensitif sangat nyah. layan kan je la. aku ni biar la demam tak makan ubat, tapi sakit kepala wajib toyoh minyak ni. minyak lain tak nak! bagi la minyak dagu pun. kahkahkah

hati meronta

lama menghilang tiba tiba muncul dengan tajuk se-annoying mungkin. eee tajuk tak boleh blah. rase nak lempang laju laju je. kkk back to the title, ape ke hal nya sampai hati meronta ronta ni ? tak, bukan cite nak best je tapi tu lah hakikat nya. hati meronta bila apa yang kita rasa sangat susah kita nak luahkan. tak mampu kita nak kongsi. tak mampu nak cerita kat sesiapa pun even kat blog picisan ni. hati sakit. sungguh. bukan semua benda kita boleh nak cerita kat orang. betul ? jadi bila sampai part simpan sendiri dalam hati ni lah aku paling lemah sekali :(

dear heart, please behave :(

Monday, March 14, 2011

majoriti vs minoriti

siapa yang tak tahu ape tu majoriti n minoriti ? aku nak kongsi sikit la ketidakpuasan hati aku beberapa hari yang lepas. dalam nak anjurkan ape ape aktiviti yang melibatkan jumlah orang yang lebih dari satu, kita kena amik kira setiap pandangan orang kan. jadi kita buat meeting. tanye pendapat sorang sorang. A nak ape. B nak ape. baru lah kita buat keputusan mengikut kemahuan majoriti. bukan minoriti. betul tak ? dah sebulat suara setuju.

yang aku tak paham, kenapa last minit, tukar plan ikut cita rasa sendiri ? ape guna kite buat meeting sebelum ni ? dah tu tak tanya ape, terus inform plan dah di tukar. tak fikir ke perasaan orang lain ? fikir sendiri la siapa yang pentingkan diri sendiri. aku pun tak tau sejak bila minoriti tu boleh menang bila lawan dengan majoriti.

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after so many things happened, i dont know why im still here.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

entry loser. nak nangis laju laju ! :(

tak yah nangis. tahan je ! im afraid, once i cry i couldnt stop it. i wanna think that it's not worth it. AT ALL. even i've been waiting for so long, i still wanna say it's still doesnt worth my tears. jyeah it sounds so hypocrite. loser. no wonder semalam seharian aku tak de feel langsung nak on facebook. ceh dan2 je kan. i found that he's finally in a relationship with someone. sedih betul tahu tak ?!

hi crush. there's nothing much i can say. semoga kau happy dengan dia. takde benda lain aku mintak cuma ni. semoga berkekalan lah korang. aku sedih. tapi aku lebih rela tengok orang yang aku sayang hidup gembira. menyayangi kau tak semesti nya aku perlu memiliki kau. kau happy pun cukup lah.

you know what ? lepas tengok relationship status kau dengan die, i was like err err gulp! terus sambar headset layan lagu volume paling high. aku tension tibe tibe. nak tahu lagu ape aku dengar masa tu ? BEAST - SHOCK. find the translation and you will know why i pick that song. berape puluh kali repeat lagu tu je, aku pun tak perasan. hmm, macam tak dapat terima at first. yela. lame aku sayang kau dalam diam. hari hari aku stalk kau. kau ingat senang ke aku nak terima macam tu je ? haihh. aku ingat kan kau jenis lelaki yang tak nak komitmen. nampak nye aku silap. heh

whatever it is, life must go on. for sure i cant simply throw you away. ill keep you in my heart lying with all the memories. and to you, i will always pray for your happiness. take care batman